I took moments throughout the day to be aware and breathe, but I realized that I didn’t actually carve out at least 5 minutes of dedicated meditation time. In the process of trying to make this into a habit, I really need to make it a routine so there it no longer requires any of my cognitive processes. I must go back to meditating first thing in the morning.
1.5 mile loop at lunch
20 minute ab work out
I felt my first itch today. P (I’m going to refer to my partner as “P”) had a dinner with work colleagues. Usually as soon as I get this message, a signal goes off that I should go have dinner with friends too. Due to all the work I’ve been doing, these signals didn’t fire right away, but they did creep up on me. It started with a craving to eat something delicious, then moved its way to an invitation to a coworker to come over and make something with me. She already had plans around ten, but said she’d be down for dinner if I was up for it. I quickly pumped the breaks and replied that I had to work out. Then a text from a friend…it was 420. Hmm…should I go…? NO. Go home. Do a workout. Cook yourself that chicken and veggies you were planning on making. Read. Work on some of your creative projects. Okay, okay, okay.
So off to the market I went to pick up some missing essentials. Then the bottles of wine came at me. Yes? No? Stop. But… In this case, I actually decided to buy a bottle. Like I said, the point isn’t to quit drinking completely. That would just set me up for failure, and to be honest, I think having a few drinks here and there is great. I just want it to be able to stop there…to feel like I have a choice over the matter…as opposed to having two drinks and then realizing it’s 4:30 and I’m at some after party regretting the day I was born. So, I bought a bottle of white and had one glass with my dinner. I’m sure it’s different for everyone, but in this specific case, I think giving myself a little dose here and there will prevent me from running back with open arms denouncing all the commitments I made. It’s like when people try to go on diets and give up everything at once. We all know where that’s going to end…you’re going to be miserable, cave and end up binge eating more than you ever would have in the first place.
Do not go out to drink.
Do not eat garbage food.
Turkey, Ham Salad
Tortilla Chips, Salsa
Yogurt with Cereal
Chicken, Cauliflower Rice, Brussel Sprouts, Carrots
Mini Ice Cream Sandwich