I did another guided meditation on mindfulness while driving to work today. I think I’m really liking it and might turn this into a more consistent thing. The topic I chose today was Living in the Moment. The Power of Now was one of the first books I read that really explained, well, the power of now. When I was growing up, my dad would always say to me, “Be nowhere. Now. Here.” When you’re able to truly be in the moment, without any regret or anger about the past, without any worry or anxiety about the future, there really is nothing left besides joy. The room usually occupied by negative rumination is cleared and a wide space opens up for joy. The thing is, being able to truly be in the now like that is no easy feat…well, not for anything longer than a fleeting moment anyway. And that’s why enlightenment is so hard to obtain.
I’ve been extending my moments of experience bit by bit and it’s pretty amazing. It feels so wonderful to be able to catch myself mid-agitation, take a breath and just let it go. Sometimes it takes three or four breaths, but usually I can walk away from the thoughts that are begging me to pick it back up. Sorry bro, but I don’t really feel like letting you ruin the next few hours of my life right now.
Towards the end of the meditation, we took some time to do a joy practice. I thought of my niece and nephew who are about six months old. Can I just say, pure fuckin’ joy?! The smiles and laughter that come out of these precious little beings is transcendent. Just thinking about it fills me up! Quite literally…I can feel my body warming up with joy. Why, why, why do we turn into these messes?!?!
It’s weird thinking back on it because I’m remembering the tail end of the meditation when I felt so wondrous, but there was a time in there when I wasn’t feeling well. My stomach was hurting and cramping up (hmmm the power of meditation?). When I got to work, I started feeling nauseous again. I then proceeded to throw up three times and eventually go home. So no, I didn’t exercise.
Do not go out to drink.
Do not eat garbage (fast) food.