My internet was down the other day, so I couldn’t post. The next day when it was back up, I fell into a…I don’t want to say depression because it’s not that serious. It’s more like a general lethargy and lack of desire to do anything. I haven’t really felt this way since I started my daily exercising and stopped binge drinking, and it was really mild, but nevertheless it came.
Usually when this state comes over me, all I want to do is lay in bed and watch TV. I just want to shut my mind off and not do anything. I’m not really sure why it came. I did get in a bit of a tussle with P. Perhaps it’s the lack of consistency in the last week or two of my commitments. I’m not quite sure why, but it came and then it went.
With the start of a new week, I want to renew my commitment to my commitments. I’ve been posting (and sometimes writing) my recaps the following day because I’m so tired at the end of the day, but it’s been a bit confusing trying to remember what I did the day before with all the new experiences I’ve had that day. I’m also trying to just let things kind of happen and not put too much pressure or rigidity into this practice. I have a tendency to be quite pedantic and obsess over accuracy and consistency.
This morning, I tried meditating to classical music while I drove to work. My mind strayed here and there, but I really tried to just listen to the sounds of the music.
Then on my drive home, I did a guided meditation on mindful life. I found myself getting quite sleepy and had to open the window to stay awake.
2 mile walk during lunch.
Circuit workout with the power ball.
Eat, Pray, Shut Up
Do not go out to drink.
Do not eat garbage (fast) food.
I ate a caramel sundae from McDonald’s.