Day 38 – Seriously??

Meditate. ✖

Exercise. ✅
2 miles at lunch + 3 flights of stairs.

Write. ✅
I’m not feeling good emotions right now. It’s as if I spoke too soon. I was just feeling grateful to my mom for the strong sense of emotions she gave me…then I saw her. This woman. I just can’t. I’m not in a good space and I’m thinking very dark things. There is so much anger bordering rage. The way she deals with things, the way she expresses herself, her general disposition. She is beyond selfish, and quite frankly, delusional, and I get it, she doesn’t know how else to be, but I just can’t, as her daughter, in good faith, watch this kind of behavior and feel okay. I need to find a way out of this reactivity when it comes to her. Help.

Do not go out to drink. ✅

Do not eat garbage (fast) food. ✅

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